Friday, April 13, 2018

Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill: Chapter 32

In Chapter Thirty-One, Von Lawson production survey results show 29% of people now believe Abraham Lincoln was romantically involved with Joshua Speed. Wyatt blogs more evidence that Lincoln was Gay, The Elysium Letter, and explains how both Lincoln and Martin Luther King Jr. had a dream that all of us would be someday be free, and equal. And how today it's up to each of us to make our world the world they dreamed about. But then the morning of the parade, Wyatt discovers that Wax Lincoln, the star of their parade float, has been stolen. And a call from Mackenzie has Wyatt headed out to track Wax Lincoln down so he can save the parade...

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Chapter 32
Saturday February 14

            Orange and white road barriers and groups of high school guys in yellow John Wilkes Booth Appreciation Society T-shirts blocked the way to Union Square on Grant and Johnson streets. The moon was more than half full, and Wyatt used the light to backtrack to 6th Street and head to the park above the stream, figuring he could sneak in that way. He passed four empty buses, and everything was eerie-quiet as he came around the corner of the Log Cabin. It was foggier here.
            A soldier with two weapons over his shoulder stood in front of Wyatt, silhouetted against the yellow-white light coming from Union Square just around the corner. Another guy dressed like a grunt soldier banged his way out of one of the five blue porto-potties on the park grass, saying, “For two hundred dollars, I’ll make a four a.m. call. But damn, I’m tired.”
            The first soldier handed porto-potty guy his rifle. “At least we don’t have to shave.” He took a sip from a take-out cup as they headed to the square.
            “You never get the close-ups if you do.” Porto-potty guy agreed.
            Wyatt hurried to follow them, trying to look like he belonged in the Butternut Gray uniform he’d borrowed from their military mannequin. The wool coat itched and he pulled at the yellow bandana on his neck. He’d tied it too tight.
            “Gentlemen, you’re late! We’re racing the sun, and it’s one take, no re-dos.” Someone with a clipboard and walkie-talkie shouted at them. She stood by an old-fashioned lantern hanging from an iron rod. “Starbucks in the trash can, tattoos covered, and make sure those cell phones are off. They didn’t have those in 1865! Everyone’s lined up and we’re shooting in three minutes! Hustle up!” She spoke into her walkie-talkie. “I’ve got three stragglers.”
            The two other guys broke into a run and disappeared into the bank of fog ahead. Wyatt heard a different woman’s voice from the clipboard lady’s walkie-talkie behind him, “Roger that. Ease up on the fog. Cue sound.”
            A snare drum rolled, echoing through Wyatt. He walked into the mist and as it swirled away from his legs what he saw was unreal, like stepping back in time. Two hundred Civil War soldiers stood in silent formation, everyone staring up at a waist-high stage ringed by bright oil lanterns. It was where the metal arch spelling out ‘Lincolnville’ had been but that was gone.
            Three men stood on the stage, one with a canvas sack over his head and his arm in a sling. The other two wore officer uniforms. Wyatt wove his way forward, trying to make sense of it. The soldiers all around him looked so real. Like his soldier in the photo come to life.
            No one glanced Wyatt’s way, but he was glad it wasn’t daylight yet.
            Suddenly, the drumming stopped, and everyone slapped their rifles to their sides at attention.
            Wyatt got his Springfield rifle from their display case in position and tried to look like a soldier. He reminded himself that some real Civil War soldiers had been younger than he was. He was five rows from a heap of scrap wood piled between the soldiers and the stage. His bandana was too high and the jacket collar continued to be super itchy, making him wish it wasn’t buttoned up all the way. When was the last time they’d cleaned this?
            He thought about Martin and his dust mites, and how those microscopic insects really did look like aliens. His neck itched worse, like the mites or alien lice or whatever they were had realized that instead of plastic, they finally had human flesh to eat. But Wyatt didn’t dare move. Everyone but the officer walking the row was completely still.
Wyatt kept the forage cap low on his face as the officer approached, hoping the mix of oil lamp and pre-dawn fog would camouflage him. The officer’s brown and shiny brass scabbard with a sword in it came to a stop right in front of Wyatt. A fringed gold sash covered the officer’s belt and knotted at his right hip. Slate-blue wool pants tucked into high leather boots turned directly towards him. Hesitantly, Wyatt looked up at the officer’s face…Mackenzie’s dad!
Mr. Miller stared at him and Wyatt tensed up, expecting Mackenzie’s dad to shout, blow Wyatt’s cover, and kick him out of there. But Mr. Miller didn’t say anything. He just gave Wyatt a you-be-careful look and started walking again.
            “Soldiers of the Confederacy!” The shortest of the three men on stage shouted out. He had a funny, high voice. “I give you the President of The Confederate States of America, Jefferson Davis!”
            The guy with the goatee walked forward, arms raised in a rock star way that set off alarms in Wyatt’s head. The goatee was new and he was in period uniform, but Wyatt would have known those cowboy boots anywhere.
            Ernest Von Lawson.
            “Men. You are all witness to a moment that will change the course of our country’s history. For we have here, as a prisoner of war, captured this very morning by our brave patriot, John Wilkes Booth…” He gestured to the side, but Wyatt couldn’t see who was playing the famous assassin. “…None other than the Devil himself, false president of our brothers, our enemy to the North, Mr. Abraham Lincoln!”
            The soldiers around Wyatt jeered and booed. They did have wax-Lincoln! Was that him under the bag? And where was Mackenzie? He’d been so mad at her, but then she went and told him about this…Wyatt’s eyes searched but he didn’t see her.
            Von Lawson continued. “This war, which has rent country and families in two, must end. And it will end, right here. As I have long said, we desire peace at any sacrifice save that of honor and independence. Honor. Honor is the reason we gather here today, in this Tribunal to try Abraham Lincoln for conspiracy to subjugate us by arms, for indecency and lies, for offenses against our humanity, and for crimes against nature!”
            With that, the shorter guy pulled the canvas bag off the third guy’s head, revealing wax-Lincoln. His right arm that was usually out to shake was tight to his chest in a makeshift sling. He was gagged, and his hair stood up on one side, which made him look scared, even though Wyatt knew it wasn’t real. Despite everything, it was good to see him.
            Von Lawson pointed at Lincoln. “We have seen evidence of his unholy and heinous crime, lying with a man as one lies with a woman, if one is so blessed.”
            I gave them the evidence. This is all happening because of me...
            “A crime from the time of Sodom and Gomorrah to today. How do we find Lincoln?”
            The men around Wyatt roared the word, “Guilty!”
            Von Lawson dipped his head. “The sentence is death.”
            What?
            Before Wyatt knew what was happening, three soldiers rushed on stage, carried wax-Lincoln down, and pushed him standing up into the middle of the stack of scrap wood. They piled the pieces higher on his legs.
            Von Lawson jumped down. “We end this war now, with a new dawn. A new day.”
            They had timed it perfectly, shafts of sunlight just cresting the Cascade Mountains behind Wyatt.
            Von Lawson picked up a brightly glowing lantern. “In flames of righteousness, their disgraced and discredited Commander-In-Chief will be gone. The North will be left in chaos. And the South will rise… to victory!”
            Wyatt’s feet felt frozen in place.
            Von Lawson whipped the oil lantern through the air and it smashed at Lincoln’s feet, an exploding ball of glass shards and fire. The wood, which must have been soaked with lighter fluid, erupted into flames.
            “NOOO!” Wyatt screamed, but it was drowned out by the cheers of 200 soldiers around him shouting at the top of their lungs, “HUWWWAAAAAAAAH!”          
            Wyatt watched, horrified, as Lincoln’s face sagged in the heat. His suit was on fire now, and the wax figure kept melting, sloping down like a pyramid in the flames.
            Von Lawson’s satisfied expression was lit by the fire consuming Lincoln, as the soldiers in their rows cheered.
            In minutes only the metal armature of the statue was left, and even that toppled and fell into the flames. The soldiers stopped their shouting and for a long moment everything was silent.
            A woman dressed in jeans and a sweater walked forward with a megaphone and addressed the crowd. “And… that’s a wrap! Thank you, and our P.A. Jessica will have your cash for you on the buses.” The soldiers broke formation and she put the megaphone on the edge of the stage. Von Lawson high-fived her.
“I can’t wait to get this footage to the edit bay.” She told him.
Wyatt walked closer, spotting Jonathon in a yellow John Wilkes Booth Appreciation Society T-shirt. He was standing with his parents and sister by some of the crew who were taking down the large film-shoot cameras.
            Von Lawson peeled off the fake goatee and rubbed his chin as they walked back to the crew area. “Civilization, here I come!”
            Someone spoke into a walkie-talkie. “Let’s clear this area and take down the barricades. We have to be out of here before their parade starts, and that’s at nine.”
            Wyatt saw his chance and cut past the burned down fire to grab the megaphone. He pressed a button to talk and a siren blared. Ow, that hurt his ears.
Everyone stopped moving. Wyatt tried again, pressing the other button. “What about slavery?” His voice, amplified, carried across the square.
            Wyatt watched Von Lawson push back through the crowd to face him from 20 yards away. The T.V. host stood there like a gunfighter out of some cowboy movie, about to draw and fire. Wyatt forced his voice to not shake as he pressed the megaphone’s ‘talk’ button again. “What about slavery, Mr. Von Lawson? If the South wins?” Everyone was listening. Watching him. Wyatt felt his face heat up, but told himself it didn’t matter.
            “Wyatt… Did you enjoy the show?” Von Lawson didn’t need a microphone.
            “No.” Wyatt’s voice got stronger. “What about slavery?”
            Von Lawson was casual. “Slavery would have ended on its own, eventually.”
            Anger pushed everything else aside. “That’s supposed to be good enough? Eventually?” Wyatt snorted his disgust. “And what about all the soldiers like me? One in ten are queer, like Lincoln was. Even back then.” Like my soldier probably was.
            Von Lawson inclined his head to the fire’s smoking embers.
            Maybe Wyatt could get him to say it, with all these witnesses. “Is that your Real America? Just kill the people you don’t like?”
            “Phineas didn’t kill people he didn’t like. Phineas acted to mend the displeasure of the Lord. Anyway, we haven’t killed anyone. It was just an effigy. Just a short film project we thought could maybe turn this thing around. Let people think it through to its obvious conclusion. If they want to believe Lincoln was this immoral practicing sodomite you think he was, America might have turned out to be a very different country. One they might not be so keen on. Though, for some us, it could have worked out.” Von Lawson smiled, the biggest shark of all. “And, as an added benefit, without your Lincoln, you can’t have your parade celebrating queerness now. You ruined that word for us, you know? ‘Queer’ used to be a perfectly good word, meaning disgustingly different.”
            There was a honk, and soldiers moved out of the way as a green pickup with paper flowers all over it slowly pushed through to the stage and stopped ten feet from them. A three-person camera crew jumped down from the back, and started filming Wyatt, Von Lawson, everything. Iron-on letters on a white pillowcase attached to the truck grill read,

All People* Are Created Equal
*No Exceptions

Wyatt looked to see who was behind the wheel.
            Martin!
            Martin put up a hand and smiled at him.
            Inside Wyatt, hope soared. He ran over to the passenger door and wrenched it open. “Hey! You’re like the cavalry.”
            “Not exactly a Bond-car entrance, but we made it!” He beamed. “It’s good to see you.”
            Wyatt tossed in his rifle and grabbed Lincoln’s hat from the passenger seat where he’d put it earlier. He spoke into the megaphone. “We’re still going to have our parade.”
            “How?” Von Lawson mocked him. “You don’t have a Lincoln!”
            In that instant, Wyatt realized he wasn’t scared anymore. The weight of holding the secret was gone. Everyone there knew he was gay. Some people weren’t okay with it, but that wasn’t Wyatt’s problem – it was theirs. And a lot of people were okay with him being him. Some of the people who had been to his blog. And probably all of the ones coming for the parade later this morning – fingers crossed some people would show up! But it wasn’t about what strangers thought.
There was his dad and mom. Mackenzie, and Jennie and all their friends who had been watching his back at school. And Rhonda. Martin. Most of all, himself. He was okay with it. Okay with being 100% Wyatt.
            He felt the camera lights on him as he said two words under his breath, for courage. “Soul Force.”
            Wyatt leapt into the back of the pickup, took off the bandana and belt set with his bayonet and, Superman-style, pulled off his wool jacket. The leather suspenders holding up his Butternut Gray soldier pants framed the Super ‘G’ on his chest. It was time to be his own superhero.
            The boxes of Lincoln hats were by his feet. But he had the one from wax-Lincoln, which even though he knew was imitation beaver fur, felt more real now than ever. He picked up the hat in one hand and the megaphone in the other.
Von Lawson had said they didn’t have a Lincoln, but he was wrong.
Wyatt put the stovepipe hat on his head and spoke into the megaphone. “I’ll be Lincoln. All men are created equal. Women, too. Everybody! That’s the world I want to live in.”
            Von Lawson scoffed. “Nobody who wrote the Declaration of Independence was thinking about gay people being equal.”
            “Right!” Wyatt got sarcastic. “Equality should only be for rich white straight men who are the descendants of other rich white straight men from Europe.”
            “RAAAHHHHH!” “Get him!” “Shut him up!” The truck got rushed by twenty shouting guys – from school and the Freshman basketball team – all of them in yellow John Wilkes Booth Appreciation Society T-shirts. They started pushing it sideways, rocking the whole pickup back and forth.
            “Wyatt!” Mackenzie screamed, and he saw her running towards the truck from the other side of the stage. More people were coming behind her.
            Martin shouted, “Hold on!,” a grinding sound telling Wyatt that he was trying to start the engine. Wyatt clung to the cab roof as the arbor snapped and its top crashed to the truck bed, missing him by inches. He was sure they were going to flip the truck over.
            “Stop!” Someone in a yellow shirt was waving his arms. Wyatt looked at him, wide-eyed.
            It was Jonathon.
“STOP!” Jonathon yelled it again, pulling Charlie’s arm off the pickup. The guys stood down. “It’s gone far enough.”
            Mackenzie came to Jonathon’s side, out of breath. “Let them be equal! Everyone equal.”
            “Whose side are you on?” Charlie snarled at his best friend.
            Jonathon paused. He looked at Wyatt. At Mackenzie next to him.
            “Your choice, big brother.” Becca called to Jonathon as she strode over from where she’d been standing with the film crew, alternating steps on her pink zebra-print prosthetic leg. “You can be Luke, or Darth Vader. But Von Lawson, he’s pretty much Emperor Palpatine.”
Wyatt wasn’t sure what Jonathon was going to do. The crowd pressed in thick around them with soldier-actors and townspeople drawn to the commotion.
Suddenly, Jonathon stripped off his John Wilkes Booth Appreciation Society T-shirt and threw it to the ground. Camera lights on him, he vaulted into the back of the truck.
Was that so he wouldn’t get his shirt dirty when they fought?
Wyatt resisted the urge to take a step back. He met Jonathon’s eyes, determined. He was not going down without a fight. Not this time. Not ever again. He spoke into the megaphone, his voice mocking. “What, no lightsaber for the big Star Wars duel?”
Jonathon flinched, and then put up his palm, “I don’t want to fight you.”
A hard laugh burst from Wyatt’s mouth.
One of the boxes of souvenir Lincoln hats had broken open, and Jonathon bent to pick up a stovepipe hat made out of heavy paper. Looking right at Wyatt, he stood tall and put the hat on his own head.
Wyatt was stunned.
            “What the hell?” Von Lawson shouted. The guys from Jonathon’s team, in a cluster around the truck, looked lost.
            “You’re right. We’re all equal, or should be.” Jonathon told Wyatt. He took a deep breath, like he was about to reveal something big. He turned to the crowd and cameras and his sister and watching parents, “If the Galactic Republic can include everyone, freaky-weird aliens like Wookiees and Twi’leks and humans, too, then shouldn’t there be an equal place in our world for humans who are different than us?” He looked at his teammates. “Come on, Cohen: Asians and Jews. Anderson, what about girls like your mom and sister?” His eyes swept Miguel from the basketball team and up to Martin, who was standing on the truck step bar, staring at him. “And Latin people and Black people…” Jonathon looked back at Becca, who was standing there with one eyebrow raised, watching him. He smiled at her in apology, “And disabled people!”
He turned back to Wyatt. “Even gays. And if celebrating all that needs a Lincoln, okay. I’m Lincoln.”
            Mackenzie came closer to the truck and reached up a hand. Jonathon lifted her to join them. She grabbed a hat, and put it on. “And I’m Lincoln, too!”
            “Count me in.” Becca said, and with a leap hoisted herself up into the truck bed as well. She put a hat on her head and crowed, “I’m Lincoln!” She hugged her brother and put her hand out to Mackenzie, who clasped it.
            “I’m Lincoln!” Martin beamed at Wyatt, and pulled on a hat.
            A hand shot up from among the soldier actors, a guy with a beard. “I’m Lincoln!”
            “And I’m Lincoln!” That was Jennie.
            “I’m Lincoln!” Another soldier.
            “I’m Lincoln!” Sandee, from the candy store.
            And more soldiers, and townspeople, like a wave.
            “I’m Lincoln!” “I’m Lincoln!” “I am Lincoln!”
            Mackenzie glanced at Wyatt. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about Jonathon, but I didn’t think you’d understand. But now, maybe you can see what I knew all along…” She smiled at Jonathon with a mix of admiration and pride. She turned back to Wyatt. “Are we okay?”
Slowly, Wyatt nodded. “Yeah.” He turned to Jonathon. “Hey, why did you help get word out about Lincoln, like with the radio program?”
“I needed you to be a big deal.” Jonathon said.
Wyatt gave him a what-does-that-mean? pop of his hands.
Jonathon shrugged. “Luke wouldn’t be anyone without Darth Vader. I mean, he wouldn’t be a hero.”
“So I was your Darth Vader?” Wyatt asked. Not much of a compliment.
“Well, yeah.” Jonathon admitted. “I didn’t really work out that way, but…”
That explains the Death Star.
“Guys, it’s quarter-to-eight!” Martin looked up from his phone.
Wyatt tilted his head to where the parade groups were supposed to line up on Hayes Street. “We should probably go help them get ready.” He looked over at Mackenzie, “You staying for the parade?”
“Wyatt!” Then she shook her head. “It was going to be a surprise, but… I’m in it. Sensei Jodi’s got our whole dojo to march!”
She was about to hug Wyatt when a voice cut the air. “I am your Commander in Chief!” Wyatt whipped around to see it was Von Lawson, on another megaphone. “Soldiers of the Confederate States of America – I order you to block that street and stop this parade!”
No one moved.
Von Lawson pointed to the North-West corner of the square. “If you want your two-hundred dollars, you will form a human barrier at that intersection and prevent anyone from marching in this so-called ‘parade’ honoring perversion, immorality, and the radical homosexual agenda.”
The re-enactment actors grumbled.
“I thought we were done. Didn’t the Director call wrap?”
“I didn’t wake up at two a.m. for nothing.”
Von Lawson spoke again. “In fact, I’ll double your pay for every man that stands his ground until their parade permit expires at noon.”
Wyatt heard a re-enactment soldier by the truck. “Four hundred dollars? Okay!”
What looked like half of the soldiers started to move in a group to block Route 37 at Johnson Street.
Wyatt looked at Mackenzie, Martin, Jonathon, and Becca, but didn’t know what any of them could do to stop it.
“Enough play acting!” Mr. Miller pushed through the crowd to get in front of the men heading into Johnson Street.
His costume outranked them, but would they listen to him?
“I am a duly sworn officer of the law, and the permit allowing this re-enactment filming has expired!”
Mackenzie seemed to hold her breath.
 “First of all,” Von Lawson spoke through his megaphone. “You’re working for me right now, security? And second, you’re not even a real cop.” Von Lawson sneered at him. “You’re a meter maid! You write tickets.”
Wyatt noticed Mackenzie’s hands ball into fists.
            “That’s right.” Mackenzie’s dad pulled his parking ticket pad out of his uniform’s jacket pocket. He flipped the book open, and with a raised pen faced the re-enactment actors who had started for the intersection. “You all need to go back to your buses, or I will be forced to issue you citations for obstructing a public thoroughfare. And jaywalking.”
Wyatt saw Mackenzie’s proud look as she watched her dad.
Mr. Miller continued, “Trust me, it’ll cost you a lot more than four-hundred dollars. And you’ll have to show up in court.”
The mass of men hesitated.
Von Lawson threatened them. “Leave now and you don’t get paid!”
Martin stood on the top of the truck bed side, his Lincoln hat making him even taller. He shouted, “My mom’s a lawyer! She’ll help you sue Von Lawson for wages, but you can’t stop this parade from happening!”
Wyatt put his arm out to Martin, and they grasped hands. “But you can stay and be IN the parade!” Wyatt spoke into his megaphone. “Come on! What kind of world is it going to be? Shouldn’t everyone be equal?”
“Please.” Mackenzie said it quietly. Almost like a prayer.
They waited to see what the crowd would do. Jonathon put his arm around Mackenzie.
“How about one of them hats, if we’re staying?” One of the soldiers called up to them.
Mackenzie turned to Wyatt. “I have some birthday money saved up, and I can’t think of anything better to spend it on!”
He nodded at her, grateful.
Mackenzie handed the soldier a hat. “Here you go…”
“I want a hat!”
“Absolutely!” Mackenzie said.
            “Me, too!”
            Mackenzie, Wyatt, Martin, Jonathon, and Becca passed out Lincoln hats to the crowd that surged forward. No one went to block the street. The tide had turned, in their favor.
            Wyatt spotted Von Lawson slink off into his Limo and drive away. Good.
Mackenzie moved closer to Jonathon, and Wyatt heard her ask, “You stole the wax figure, didn’t you?”
“I wish I hadn’t.” Jonathon said, like he really meant it.
She touched his cheek. “But when it counted, you came through.”
            He gave a shrug. “What can I say? I’m a Jedi.”
            “I think you really are.” And with that, Mackenzie kissed him.
            Wyatt looked away, but this time, not out of anger, or betrayal, or hurt. He wanted to give them a moment of privacy. After all, Mackenzie was his best friend. And, he realized, he was happy for her.

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Wednesday, April 11, 2018

The "Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill" Press Kit!

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"Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill" cover high resolution (CMYK for print)

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"Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill" Tip Sheet with Author Interview


“This powerful novel . . . belongs in every library that serves teens.”
—Yapha Mason, school librarian and two-time Newbery Medal judge

Insightful... valuable... Fascinating information about Lincoln and Speed is also bound to spark curiosity... Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill is a sympathetic novel that will change the way young readers look at history and the lessons it has to teach.”
Foreword Reviews

This one should get people talking! I hope this book . . . finds the large audience it deserves.”
—Brent Hartinger, author of 12 novels, including the groundbreaking Gay teen novel Geography Club



QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL



Inspired by real historical evidence that Abraham Lincoln was in love—romantic love—with another man, this debut YA novel was too controversial for traditional publishing. Crowdfunded in six days with a successful Kickstarter campaign that ultimately 182 backers supported, QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL asks LGBTQ teens (and everyone else), What if you knew a secret from history that could change the world?

Wyatt is 15, and nobody in his homophobic small town of Lincolnville, Oregon, knows that he’s Gay. Not even his best friend (and accidental girlfriend) Mackenzie. Then he discovers a secret from actual history: Abraham Lincoln was in love with another guy! Since everyone loves Lincoln, Wyatt’s sure that if the world knew about it, they would treat Gay people differently and it would solve everything about his life. So Wyatt outs Lincoln online, triggering a media firestorm that threatens to destroy everything he cares about—and he has to pretend more than ever that he’s straight. . . . Only then he meets Martin, who is openly Gay and who just might be the guy Wyatt’s been hoping to find.


Lee Wind is the founding blogger and publisher of I’m Here. I’m Queer. What The Hell Do I Read?, an award-winning website about books, culture, and empowerment for Lesbian, Gay, Bi, Trans, Questioning, and Queer youth, and their Allies. For over 10 years, readers from 100-plus countries have racked up 2.4 million page views—and counting!

In his “Clark Kent” jobs, Lee is the director of marketing and programming at the Independent Book Publishers Association and the official blogger for the Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators.

Lee lives in Los Angeles with his husband and their teenage daughter. QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL is his debut novel.


QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL
by Lee Wind
I’m Here. I’m Queer. What The Hell Do I Read?
On sale: October 2, 2018
ISBN:
978-1-7322281-0-8 (Hardcover) | $25.99
978-1-7322281-1-5 (Paperback) | $13.99
978-1-7322281-2-2 (eBook) | $6.99
Ages 14 & Up

Press / Events

Two-Page "Bringing History Into the Light: An Indie Success Story" feature article in Publishers Weekly Sept 24, 2018.



An Amazing Shout Out to "Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill" in the Santa Monica Daily Press


Lee interviewed on "Star Style Be The Star You Are with Cynthia Brian" radio program October 3, 2018


Lee on Lambda LitFest "Crowdfunding Queer Lit" Panel on October 1, 2018

"Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill" featured in Publishers Weekly

Lee signs ARCs at 2018 ALA Annual Conference in New Orleans

Lee's ignite session 5-minute video from IBPA's Publishing University

Lee speaks (and reads from an ARC of "Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill") at Pasadena City College

Lee on the One Bad Mother Podcast



AN INTERVIEW WITH
QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL AUTHOR LEE WIND

Why this book?

Lee Wind: I wrote the book that would have changed my life if I’d read it when I was a teen. I spent so many years hiding who I really was and what I really felt. As a teen, I dated girls and judged it the right thing to do—it was what my parents wanted, what society expected—but I didn’t feel what I was supposed to feel. I kept hoping those feelings would come, but they didn’t. Finally, in my twenties, I accepted the truth, started to love myself for me, and came out as a Gay man.

Fast-forward to 2010: I went to a talk by Randy Harrison, and he mentioned the letters Abraham Lincoln wrote to Joshua Fry Speed, letters that Randy said proved Abraham was in love with Joshua. And I was like, “That can’t be true. I would have heard of it.” But I couldn’t shake the idea, that What if . . . ? So I went to the library and got out all these books of primary source materials, and I read the letters.

There’s this one where Joshua has been married to a woman for eight months, and Abraham writes him and asks, “Are you now in feeling as well as judgment, glad that you are married as you are? From anybody but me this would be an impudent question, not to be tolerated, but I know you will pardon it in me.” Lincoln closes by asking Joshua to answer him quickly, saying he’s impatient to know. We don’t have the response, but we do know that it was only weeks later that Abraham married Mary Todd. Boom! I read it, and I was like, “That’s me! That was how I felt dating girls . . . ,” and then goose bumps rose up all over my body. Maybe Lincoln really was in love with Speed. Maybe they were like me after all—maybe they were Gay, too!

As I did more research, I discovered more evidence, until I became convinced that Abraham and Joshua were in love.

And I kept thinking, If I’d known back when I was fifteen that Abraham Lincoln was in love with another guy, it would have changed my whole life. He’s on Mount Rushmore. He’s on the penny. He’s on the five-dollar bill!

I don’t have a time machine to go back and tell this secret from history to myself, but I can pay it forward. So I wrote this novel, where Wyatt, a fifteen-year-old closeted boy who’s dating a girl but not feeling what he knows he’s supposed to feel, stumbles on the very same letter Lincoln wrote Speed—in judgment but not in feeling—and I gave Wyatt that same goose-bump moment of revelation I had. And then Wyatt decides to tell the world.

The idea is to share this story—and the secret from history that inspired it—with teens today. And I hope it can help empower them to be authentic now.

Why crowdfunding?

LW: [Laughs.] It wasn’t my first choice. But when you’re being preemptively banned, that’s a good reason to self-publish. Except it’s not really self-publishing. Sure, I’m the publisher and the author, but there’s a whole team of people working with me to professionally publish this book: a famous editor; a cover designer; a book designer; a copy editor; a proofreader; production, print, and distribution service people; early reviewers; everyone at my nonprofit partner, Camp Brave Trails; and, of course, the 182 Kickstarter backers who helped fund publishing and donating 810 copies to LGBTQ and Allied teens!

How can something about history change the world?

I grew up thinking there were no Gay people besides me—certainly no one important was Gay. Certainly no one in my history books. But it turns out that’s not true! History has been sanitized to “protect” young people from knowing there were men who loved men, and women who loved women, and people who lived outside gender boundaries, across time and around the world. Abraham Lincoln being in love with Joshua Fry Speed is just the tip of the proverbial iceberg, and it’s a great place to start!

Imagine if we can shift the cultural conversation so that teens know the story of Lincoln loving Speed—that’s the first crack in the false facade of history as it’s taught to young people: that everyone important was a cisgendered, rich, white, heterosexual man. Not everyone great was cisgendered and straight! Or Caucasian, or wealthy, or a man, either.

And once we let light in through that first crack, history becomes a lighthouse, shining with a prism of LGBTQ stories!

Lincoln? You really believe he was Gay?

Yes. In fact, everything that Wyatt finds out about Lincoln in the novel is real—there’s an extensive endnotes section at the end of the book. And there was more evidence that didn’t really fit in the novel, which is why there’s a whole other nonfiction book for teens I’m working on next, The Queer History Project: No Way, They Were Gay?, where Lincoln and Speed being in love is just one of fifteen true stories of men who loved men, women who loved women, and people who lived outside gender boundaries.

It’s packed with primary source materials and presents the evidence. We know what traditional historians say. They’re all CSI History, “Can you prove this person had sex with that person?” I think that’s the wrong question. I want to shine a light on history through a different lens—who was in love with whom, and how might that have changed what they accomplished?—and then let young people decide for themselves what they think.

The cover of QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL asks readers a question: What if you knew a secret from history that could change the world? How would you answer that?

That’s an easy one. I’d write this book. And then, I’d publish it.

Monday, April 9, 2018

It Looks Like This - A Gay Teen's First Love, and Loss, and...



It Looks Like This by Rafi Mittlefehldt

A new state, a new city, a new high school. Mike's father has already found a new evangelical church for the family to attend, even if Mike and his plainspoken little sister, Toby, don't want to go. Dad wants Mike to ditch art for sports, to toughen up, but there's something uneasy behind his demands. Then Mike meets Sean, the new kid, and "hey" becomes games of basketball, partnering on a French project, hanging out after school. A night at the beach. The fierce colors of sunrise. But Mike's father is always watching. And so is Victor from school, cell phone in hand.

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Friday, April 6, 2018

Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill: Chapter 31

In Chapter Thirty, in the midst of the final preparations for the parade the next day, Wyatt is stunned when Martin and Martin's mother are suddenly gone. A pizza-run with their guest has Wyatt catch Mackenzie still dating Jonathon (or at least making out with him!) And the final blow is a horrible discovery about the identity of Wyatt's soldier. Wyatt isn't going to take it - any of it - lying down, and he heads out to the school rock that still shouts its homophobic slur, and sets out to make at least this one thing better.

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Chapter 31

National Survey Results For The Week Ending Friday February 13
Von Lawson Productions
Sample: 1,000 U.S. Citizens, statistically randomized.
Results:
Do you think Abraham Lincoln was romantically involved with Joshua Speed?
No                   58%     (down 15% from last week)
Yes                  29%     (up 7% from last week)
Undecided       13%     (up 8% from last week)

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Queer As A Five-Dollar Bill Blog

QUEER AS A FIVE-DOLLAR BILL

Blog Post: Saturday February 14, 2:17 a.m.
President Abraham Lincoln Was Gay: The Elysium Letter

Fact: Abraham Lincoln wrote to his love, Joshua Fry Speed:
Springfield, February 25, 1842
“Again you say, you much fear that that Elysium of which you have dreamed is never to be realized. Well, if it shall not, I dare swear it will not be the fault of her who is now your wife. I have no doubt that it is the peculiar misfortune of both you and me to dream dreams of Elysium far exceeding all that anything earthly can realize. Far short of your dreams as you may be, no woman could do more to realize them than that same black-eyed Fanny.”

The Elysium – or Paradise – Abe wrote about was the dream that he and Joshua could end up together in their own Happily Ever After. And that didn’t happen for them.
Joshua married Fanny.
And Abe married Mary. And then, Abe changed our world forever. Because of him, our country was re-united and all the slaves were freed.
Like Martin Luther King, Jr., Abraham Lincoln had a dream: That all of us would someday be free, and equal. They both died on the way to making that dream come true.
Today, it’s up to us – each one of us – to make our world the world they dreamed about.

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            Wyatt wasn’t sure what woke him, but moonlight silvered streaks of fog outside, so he knew it was pretty early.
            The parade.
            Martin.
            Mackenzie and Jonathon.
            Would anyone come watch the parade? Would the people who’d promised to be in it even show up? And he still needed to iron those letters onto something for the truck grill banner!
            Wyatt’s mind raced. There was no falling back asleep now.
            He turned on his cell and the light from the screen made his eyes feel raw. 5:29 a.m. No word from Martin and five texts from Mackenzie. He pressed ‘delete all’ without reading any of them. What could she say? What could either of them say?
            As Wyatt headed to the stairs, he tried to push them out of his mind. Instead, he thought about the whole B&B thing. How they had every room full and his dad was so excited about having thirty-four people pre-paid for tonight’s Civil War-Era Supper. How it was his dad’s passion, and he’d set up his life where Wyatt’s mom, and even Wyatt, supported him in pursuing it with his whole heart. Maybe you didn’t need millions of dollars to be a success. Maybe, you just needed to do what you really cared about.
            The thought slowed Wyatt to a stop just as he reached the first-floor landing. He cared about the world knowing about Lincoln. About being gay being okay. About people understanding that everyone is – should be – equal. No exceptions. Wyatt cared about this. With his whole being, he cared. Maybe he had more in common with his dad than he’d thought.
            He turned around and went back up to his room to change clothes.
            When Wyatt got to the kitchen, he snagged a yogurt and dipped a granola bar into it. He took a bite, and glanced out the window. Wisps of fog rolled on the air. He could see the pickup through them.
            Wait a minute.
            Where was wax-Lincoln?
            He headed outside to make sure it wasn’t a trick of the moonlight.
            The arbor was there, covered with waxy paper flowers, but it was empty. Wyatt walked around the truck with its rainbow bunting, searching. He stepped on the plastic drop cloth they’d used to protect wax-Lincoln and the boxes of cardboard hats from getting wet overnight. It was twisted up by the left rear tire. Wyatt bent down to check under the truck and the imitation beaver fur stovepipe hat was there, lying on its side in the gravel. Wyatt picked it up and placed it carefully on the passenger seat, scanning the parking lot.
            He wasn’t anywhere.
            Someone had stolen Lincoln!

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            Wyatt searched the exhibit rooms and everywhere else, and even double-checked the parking lot. No Lincoln anywhere.
            It was 6:14 a.m., and he was trying to figure out if he should call the police, or wake up his dad and mom, or what he should do. He came back inside from the kitchen porch, blowing on his hands to warm up, when the B&B line rang.
            Wyatt stared at the phone on the counter. The nasty calls had been tapering off, and some calls were even people saying nice things. Before it could ring again and wake up the whole B&B, he grabbed it. “Hello?”
            “Wyatt!” It was Mackenzie, whispering fiercely.
            “I’m not talking to you.” If she’d called his cell he wouldn’t have picked up. Which she probably knew…
            “They have Lincoln!”
            “What? Who?”
            “Dress as a Confederate soldier, and get to Union Square.”
            “A soldier?”

            “It’s like a re-enactment. Just do it. Bring a rifle, and a belt set. You have to look real. And hurry!”
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Endnotes for Chapter 31 
Wyatt’s blog post included the paragraph from Abe’s February 25, 1842 letter to Joshua where Abe spoke of their dreams of Elysium. That’s from pages 48-49 of Joshua Fry Speed: Lincoln’s Most Intimate Friend. The same letter is also online here: http://www.classicreader.com/book/3237/45/ ; on pages 143-144 of Abraham Lincoln: His Speeches and Writings; and the Elysium section of the letter is included on page 176 of Herdon’s Life of Lincoln.
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Wednesday, April 4, 2018

A sweet and empowering music video about being your authentic Trans/Gender Non-Conforming self: Happy Little Clouds' "Beneath"



Lead singer and band founder Jac Masel identifies as Trans and uses gender neutral pronouns.
Bassist Bishop identifies as "nonbinary trans masculine," and drummer Rain identifies as a "queer female who rejects the binary."

Watch the video here, and you can read more about the band in the Advocate's April/May 2018 issue, page 51, and at Happy Little Clouds' website here: http://www.happylittleclouds.com/

Monday, April 2, 2018

Tomboy - a coming-of-age romance between two girls growing up in the 1950s



Tomboy by Janelle Reston

Some kids’ heads are in the clouds. Harriet Little’s head is in outer space.

In 1950s America, everyone is expected to come out of a cookie-cutter mold. But Harriet prefers the people who don’t, like her communist-sympathizer father and her best friend Jackie, a tomboy who bucks the school dress code of skirts and blouses in favor of T-shirts and blue jeans. Harriet realizes she’s also different when she starts to swoon over Rosemary Clooney instead of Rock Hudson—and finds Sputnik and sci-fi more fascinating than sock hops.

Before long, Harriet is secretly dating the most popular girl in the school. But she soon learns that real love needs a stronger foundation than frilly dresses and feminine wiles.

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Friday, March 30, 2018

Queer as a Five-Dollar Bill: Chapter 30

In Chapter Twenty-Nine, Mackenzie helps Wyatt navigate school, speaking to Jonathon (but Wyatt doesn't get to hear what they say.) Mackenzie joins Wyatt, Martin, and Wyatt's folks in the effort to get participants in a new kind of parade, and they get their first few entries... And, when they get the idea of using Wax Lincoln from their B and B in the back of their truck so the new parade will have at least one float, it's the first time Wyatt feels hopeful about pulling this whole thing off.

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Chapter 30
Thursday February 12

            Wyatt headed downstairs for breakfast and Martin was already in the kitchen, fiddling by the coffee machine. Probably making himself a warm coffee ice cream.
            “Morning,” Wyatt told his back, and grabbed the generic Cheerios and some milk from the fridge. He smell-checked it, then poured a bowl. He’d just crunched the first bite and sat at the table when Martin came over, hiding something behind his laptop.
            With a flourish, Martin pulled out a rainbow-sprinkle chocolate cupcake and set it in front of Wyatt. A single candle was lit on top. “Happy Lincoln’s birthday!” He winked at Wyatt, then sat and checked something on his computer.
            The cupcake smelled awesome. Way better than Wyatt’s cereal. “Thanks!”
            “Sure.” Martin said, but he kept reading. Was he working on some new lyric?
            Wyatt waited for him to stop whatever he was doing, but Martin didn’t. “You wanna watch me blow it out?” Wyatt asked.
            “I’m just trying to see if I can make something work.” Martin sounded frustrated. And then he was quiet, clacking his keyboard. For a long, long moment. The candle wax dripped onto the frosting like the first big drops of a rainstorm.
            “Martin?”
            “Sorry, I’m just, distracted. Go ahead.” He didn’t look up from his stupid computer. “There’s lot to do before Saturday.”
            Maybe Martin didn’t like Wyatt that much, after all. Maybe he didn’t care that he and his mom were leaving after the parade. Maybe the friends thing was because that was all Martin wanted them to be. But the cupcake meant… What? Maybe he was supposed to be more worried about the parade. Did Martin think some of their yesses wouldn’t show? That none of them would?
            The candle sputtered in the frosting and Wyatt blew it out, to put it out of its misery. Acrid and waxy, the smoke bit at his nose.
            The cupcake didn’t taste as good as he’d thought it would.

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Friday, February 13

            Mackenzie couldn’t stay to hang out for detention number twenty with Wyatt – too much to do for tomorrow. But it didn’t matter, since, like the day before, Wyatt was the only student in detention. Anyway, Jonathon and his sharks seemed focused on other things, whispering and planning and laughing among themselves. Wyatt didn’t know what they were up to, but they were leaving him alone, which worked for him just fine.
When the fifty-ninth minute clicked over and it was 3:15 p.m., Ms. Valens told Wyatt that he’d paid his dues to society and was free to go.
            Wyatt’s mom was there to pick him up, and the whole five minutes home they added to the punch-list of things still to do for the parade. His mom dictated, “…Check that the portable sinks will arrive with the toilets, and we need to test the sound system.” Wyatt knew he already had those on the list in his notebook, but checked anyway. It helped him not count all the new ‘Lincoln Was Great – Lincoln Was Straight!’ plastic yard signs.
            His mom pulled tight to the curb on the opposite side of the street from their B&B and told Wyatt, voice all relieved, “Some guests have already arrived.”
            “That’s awesome!” Wyatt was thinking that would help them make the bank payment. The plan was working!
            “Wyatt, there is one more thing…” His mom started, but Wyatt was already out of the truck and crossing the street.
“I’ve gotta talk to Martin! Tell me later, okay?” He had an idea for a sign on the truck grill and wanted to see what Martin thought they could make it out of. He took the front porch steps two at a time, and raced the stairs to Martin’s room.
            “Martin!” Wyatt swung open the door to Room Two but some woman was in there with short gray hair. Putting clothes in the drawer.
            “Hi!” She said, all bright and cheerful. “You must be the owners’ son. I’m Betty. Do you think I could get some extra towels?”
            Wyatt’s eyes searched the room. All of Martin’s stuff, and his guitar, had disappeared. He rushed to the bed and ripped up the blanket and all the sheets from their tight corner, exposing the blue and ivory ticking of the mattress. The dust-mite-proof cover was gone.
            Maybe Martin had doubled up with his mom so they could book the extra room…
            Wyatt ran down the hall to Room One. It was empty. Rhonda and the computers, the printer and satellite hook-up modems, all their things were gone.
            Wyatt almost tumbled down the stairs. His mom was standing in the entry, like she had known he’d come down.
            “Where’d they go?” It was hard for him to breathe.
            His mom shrugged sympathetically. “All they said was that there was something they had to do.”
            “So they’re just… gone?” Wyatt’s voice cracked. They’d said they’d stay until the parade!
His mom came over and put her hand on his arm. “With all the people coming, and things set for tomorrow, they knew we’d be okay. Maybe they just went to help someone else.”
But… They’d worked so hard to make this happen. To do this together! Maybe Martin had texted him. Wyatt checked his cell. Nothing.
He must have left a note!
            Wyatt tore up the stairs to his room, scanning the floor for an envelope. Some explanation. Another ‘Yours Forever.’
            Nothing.
            He scoured the room, went through the laundry piles, turned things over on his desk, even pulled out the window seat cushions.
            No.
            The top comforter on his bed was all smoothed out, though. Weird. He never bothered to do that.
            Wyatt walked over, and there on the pillow, folded into a square, was the super ‘G’ T-shirt. Blue and tie-dyed and proud. The one that looked so great on Martin.
            But that was it.
            Wyatt picked it up, and held it to his face. He breathed it in deep, but it didn’t smell like Martin, just faintly of detergent and fabric softener. Like fingerprints wiped clean.
            He was gone.
            Martin was gone.
The parade was tomorrow at 9 a.m. In sixteen-and-a-half hours, Wyatt would either be eaten alive by sharks or he’d have to beat them off with his bare hands. Alone.
            I guess it’s easy to drop a ‘friend.’
            Wyatt felt hollowed out inside, like some guitar robbed of its strings. Mute.
He dialed Mackenzie, speaking past the lump in his throat. “Hey, we’ve still got a lot of work to do to finish the float. Come over to help?”
            “Hi…” Mackenzie sounded preoccupied. “I’m actually really swamped with homework. 3,000 words is a challenge.” Wyatt would have bet money she meant keeping it that short. Their papers were due Monday, but Wyatt wasn’t even going to bother. There was no way Mr. Clifton was going to pass him, even if he had the world’s most perfect paper.
            “Oh. Okay.” He hated that he sounded like a little kid, all disappointed.
            “…But I can be over as soon as I finish this draft.” Mackenzie said.
            “When’s that?”
            “How about I’ll come over for an hour or two around 9 p.m.?”
            Wyatt checked the time on his phone. Four-and-a-half hours from now. He sighed. “I guess. I’ll see you then.”

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            Around 6 p.m., Wyatt helped his dad carry out wax-Lincoln, being careful with the right-arm-that’s-out-to-shake. They had filled every room of the B&B. A few of their guests were couples – one of them two guys in their 30s with matching wedding rings – and nearly all of them had offered to pitch in with decorating the pickup. They set wax-Lincoln up, standing in the back of the truck. There was no way to anchor him, so Wyatt would ride along to make sure Lincoln didn’t tip over.
            An hour later, Betty splurged and ordered pizza for everyone so they could ‘keep at it.’ They still had to make thousands of little waxed paper flowers to stuff in the chicken-wire that, along with the painted two-by-fours, created an arbor that arced high over Lincoln’s stovepipe hat. More chicken-wire draped the moving blankets they’d placed around the sides of the truck, and that needed more six-inch squares of waxy colored paper stuffed through every bee-hive-like gap in the wire. Wyatt’s dad and mom seemed grateful that they didn’t have to figure out feeding everyone, and Wyatt was sent along to help their guest pick up the pizzas. She didn’t believe in delivery – “It always gets soggy.”
            “Just over here on the right,” Wyatt directed. As Betty pulled her BMW into the Pies and Pool lot, Wyatt saw the plastic ‘Lincoln Was Great – Lincoln Was Straight!’ ad in the small patch of grass in front. They were all over town now, a spreading plague of yard signs.
            They parked and headed to the entrance. Betty pressed her key remote and her trunk popped open. In one swift move, she yanked out the lawn sign, crossed the asphalt and tossed it in the back of her car, shutting the trunk with a quiet click. The whole maneuver took five seconds. The sign was gone, with no one the wiser. She winked at Wyatt as she walked back.
            Wyatt opened the front door for her with a bow. She’d earned it.
            The place was packed, pool balls clacking and air filled with the smell of beer hops and melted cheese. The first person Wyatt saw was Charlie, who was suddenly blocking his way. Charlie’s sneer was a mirror image of Jonathon. “Hey, it’s the big fag!”
            Wyatt felt braver with Betty there beside him. “I’m not just bigger. I’m better at it than you.”
            Betty’s snort emboldened Wyatt, and he walked around a speechless Charlie and led them towards the takeout counter in back.
“Nicely done, yourself.” Betty praised him, and Wyatt wished Martin had seen that. He shook his head, trying to push thoughts of Martin away when he heard Coach Rails laugh. He was talking with Mr. Asgur, who hosted the summer Civil War re-enactments on his farm. Mayor Rails was with her husband at one of the wooden booths. Becca sat with her parents, fiddling with her phone. Wyatt didn’t see Jonathon, but if Charlie and Jonathon’s family were here, chances were he was somewhere.
Wyatt kept going, wary…
From the pool table on the other side of the Mayor’s booth, Mr. Anderson from the bank called out, “So, Kelly, is there going to be a parade after all?” He was the guy putting the squeeze on Wyatt’s dad and mom.
Mayor Rails shook her head. “Nothing but a few stragglers.”
“Parade brought in a lot of business.” Mr. Anderson said.
Mayor Rails bristled. “The main thing is to get our town’s reputation back.”
Mr. Anderson’s tone got sharper. “Do you know what this whole thing is costing us?”
Coach Rails snorted. “If he knew how much you spent on that Mary Lincoln dress you’re not wearing tomorrow, he’d know for sure.”
They didn’t spot Wyatt, and he walked past fast.
Jonah, a college dropout who worked the counter as he pursued his dream of being a painter, waved as Wyatt and Betty approached. “Good timing, Wyatt! It just came out of the oven.” He started to ring up the order.
Betty pulled out her wallet and asked Wyatt, “Shouldn’t we say something about the parade?”
“No,” Wyatt whispered back. “Let’s just get the pizzas and get out of here.”
She made a frustrated face. Jonah set the five pizza boxes on the counter and Betty handed over her credit card.
“So maybe we need a different strategy.” Mr. Anderson was still arguing with Jonathon’s mom.
“What’s your pride cost, Benny?” The Mayor stood up, soda in hand. “Listen up everyone!” People quieted down. “We’re a tourist economy and look around: No tourists! The only important thing going on this weekend is getting us back on our feet. Save Lincoln’s reputation and our town. Nothing else matters!”
Betty smacked her palm against the counter, “That’s it!”
“I’ll wait for you outside.” Wyatt grabbed the pizzas.
He’d passed Jonah’s canvas of a dog playing internet poker and was half-way out the side door when Betty said, loud enough for the whole place to hear, “Actually, there IS something else important going on this weekend. An amazing parade, celebrating the real Abraham Lincoln!”
Oh man…
The sound of people shouting stopped when the door closed behind him. Wyatt was trying to figure out if he should go back inside to rescue this crazy woman when he noticed there were two people in the Mayor’s Hummer parked right in front of him. They were kissing.
He stepped closer. Who was in there?
It was Jonathon… but that chin-length black hair…
Mackenzie!
They didn’t see him, and Wyatt backed away slowly, like it was another basket of snakes he didn’t want to tip over.
He’d wait for Betty by her car.

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            Betty came out five minutes later, face flushed. “Idiots!”  She shook her head at Wyatt.
            “Yeah.” Wyatt managed, keeping the pizza boxes between him and the Mayor’s Hummer. They were still kissing!
            He got them back to the B&B, and while Betty told everyone what had happened and they all dove into the pizzas, Wyatt wandered upstairs. He passed Room Two.
            Where was Martin? He could call, but damn it, shouldn’t Martin be the one calling him? He knew the parade was tomorrow. Wyatt was so pissed at him! He grabbed his cell.

                        Wyatt                          7:24 p.m.
                        dude! where the hell are u?

            Of course, no response.
            Wyatt’s mind careened. And Mackenzie and Jonathon! She’d lied to him. How long had they been…?
He’d had this whole plan with Mackenzie and Martin to sell the cardboard Lincoln hats during the parade to help Wyatt’s family raise the money to stay in business, and now neither of them…
            His heart pounded and Wyatt felt like he might throw up. He texted Mackenzie, too.

                        Wyatt                          7:26 p.m.
                        i saw u and Jonathon. don’t
                        show up 2night. or 2morrow.
                        or ever.

            He hit send, and then shut his phone off. He was done, and didn’t want to hear from either of them.
            Martin was gone, and Mackenzie was making out with the enemy.
            Heading downstairs, he could hear all the guests in the parking lot just behind the kitchen, where they were decorating the pickup. It sounded like a party.
Wyatt walked over to his soldier. Still cute. Unchanged. Wyatt spoke to him, “It all finishes tomorrow, I guess. Wish me luck?”  His soldier just smiled out at him from 150 years ago. Frozen in time.
He was just a photo.
Wyatt turned away. He had to do this himself. He could sell the hats right after the parade. That was, if anyone was going to be there to buy them.
There were five boxes of the souvenir Lincoln hats stacked in the corner behind reception. They needed to get to the truck. He tried to lift the first one, but it was way too heavy for cardboard and glue. Wyatt opened it and it wasn’t hats – instead it was all these old books. He’d been supposed to check out how much they were worth online, but hadn’t gotten around to it.
Wait–
            Wyatt hauled out the over-thousand-page book on top, Photographic History of The Civil War: Fort Sumter to Gettysburg.
            There on the cover was the photo. Flipped, or something. And cropped differently – all the guys in the background, behind the group of eleven, were missing. But there was his soldier. His gay fantasy soldier on the cover. Who was he?
            Wyatt scoured the jacket flaps, but there was no info about the cover image. It had to be in there somewhere. He flipped through the pages one-by-one from the beginning. Battlefields, tents, portraits of generals, injured soldiers in makeshift hospitals. He found the photo just like the one in their display case on page 47. The caption read:
            The first Virginia Militia, the “Richmond Grays,” answered the call. They did not take part in the final capture of Brown, but they did arrive in Charles Town, Virginia, in time to form a hollow square around a gallows where old John Brown was hanged after his trial.
…One of their number present was John Wilkes Booth, an actor.

            My soldier was a Confederate? On his way to the hanging of a guy who’d tried to free the slaves? And in the same regiment as John Wilkes Booth?
            It was hard to process that he’d been crushing on a Confederate soldier all these years. He’d been so sure the soldiers in the photo were Union… Wyatt looked past their antique rifles at his soldier. Knowing all that, he wasn’t so hot anymore.
            Maybe he was a gay Confederate. There had to have been some.
            But I’m fighting for the right side. Fighting to redeem Lincoln. Fighting to reclaim our gay history.
            Determination flooded through him. I guess… I really am a fighting soldier. The thought made Wyatt crack a smile.
He checked the other four boxes – they all had the Lincoln hats inside them. He grabbed a carton and hefted it easily. He’d stack them in the back of the pickup for tomorrow, and then help everyone finish transforming their truck into one amazing parade float.

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            At 11:10 p.m., the adults called it a night. Wax-Lincoln looked good under his arbor, waxed paper flowers hid all the chicken wire, and the home-made float was ready. The conversation and hot drinks moved inside to the kitchen.
            Wyatt let ten minutes pass and slipped out the front door, walking around the house to the pickup. Careful to not let anyone see him from the kitchen, he loaded his backpack with the brushes he’d washed out earlier and six pints of paint from the supplies. He gave wax-Lincoln under his plastic tarp a salute and headed out.
            The moon wasn’t up yet, and Wyatt kept his flashlight’s circle of light close to the ground. He remembered sneaking out with Martin the last time. How they had been a team. But he guessed, when the going got really tough, Martin just left. Like when he’d bailed on his old school and started homeschooling. Anyway, Wyatt was just a friend. Easy to discard. Pushing the thought down, he crossed the ford stones.
            Wyatt stayed on Jenson’s Stream Road to cut across the soccer field. Easier this way, with the heavy bag and flashlight.
            He got to the School Rock, still shouting out its message of hate,

NO FAGS IN HISTORY!

            One-by-one, in the light from the gym, Wyatt pulled out his containers of paint and set them in a line on the grass: Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue and Purple.
            What this rock needed was a big Gay Pride Rainbow.


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Endnotes for Chapter 30
When Wyatt discovers that his soldier was actually a Confederate, it's inspired by a real photo from the Photographic History of the Civil War: Fort Sumter to Gettysburg, Edited by William C. David and Bell I. Wiley, Black Dog & Leventhal Publishers, Jan 1994. The photo and caption are on page 47 as cited, and a version of the photo including Wyatt’s soldier is on the cover. 

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Wednesday, March 28, 2018

Did you know that Emma González is the president of Parkland High School's GSA?

This article by Beth Greenfield at Yahoo Lifestyle, March for Our Lives and gay activism: 'They're definitely linked for me,' says Emma González, is well-worth reading. Emma is the teen whose "We call B.S." speech went viral right after the shooting at her high school killed 17 of her fellow students.


Some highlights:

"She [Emma] then told the Washington Post that she identifies as bisexual, and suddenly her fierce badassery just made that much more sense for a whole lot of people, particularly fellow LGBTQ folks and queer activists for whom self-identity and a willingness to stand up for justice have long been inextricably linked."

and Emma speaking about the inspiration of "transgender activist Sylvia Rivera, a veteran of the 1969 Stonewall uprising, widely known as the start of the gay-rights movement."

Emma says:

“There’s this clip of her getting up onstage at one of the Stonewall Pride rallies, a couple years [after the uprising], and … everybody boos her because she’s trans. But she’s like, ‘Are you kidding me? You’re gay. I’m trans. We’re part of this. Like, I got you here. How many times have I had to fight for you? And you’re booing me because I’m trans?’” the teen says. “First of all, it was so unfair, unjustified, undignified, like, I was so infuriated by seeing that. But then there’s just knowing that there will always be people that hate you, and that they’re always going to be wrong. So it’s good to use that, and remember that whatever you’re doing, if it’s making people that mad, then it’s probably a good thing.”


Read the whole article here.

The light in me recognizes and acknowledges the light in you,
Lee

Monday, March 26, 2018

We Are Okay - Building a New Life as a Orphan at College, Marin is figuring things out. Cue the visit from her best friend, Mabel (who is Bi)



We Are Okay by Nina LaCour

Marin hasn't spoken to anyone from her old life since the day she left everything behind. No one knows the truth about those final weeks. Not even her best friend Mabel. But even thousands of miles away from the California coast, at college in New York, Marin still feels the pull of the life and tragedy she's tried to outrun. Now, months later, alone in an emptied dorm for winter break, Marin waits. Mabel is coming to visit and Marin will be forced to face everything that's been left unsaid and finally confront the loneliness that has made a home in her heart.

"We Are Okay" won the 2018 Michael L. Printz Award for being the best book written for young adults! And check out this interview with the author about the novel.

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